baby..baby...baby oooohhh

so i am now 36 weeks and 4 days! it is crazy how fast time flies! i love being pregnant, but i do think i am ready to meet him. His diaper bag is ready..we just assembled his carseat and stroller..his bassinet and playpen are ready to be occupied and all of his clothes are washed! I cannot wait until i can hold him in my arms. I dont think myles and i were this ready with My. Actually, i know we were not ready with My. We didnt even have a carseat for him when we were on our way to the hospital! We did learn a lot through the 5 years God has blessed us with My. Hopefully this time around, things will be easier. Having My with us now, will be a huge help because we will have an extra pair of hands! :) In all honesty, though, we were blessed with My being very easy for us. We dont really have anything HUGE to complain about in terms of health complications or very bad behavior from him. The delivery was even pain and complication free! So i really cannot complain about My!

This baby, however..yessss, a HUGE blessing, as well, however, i am starting to feel him. I dont know if they are contractions or not, but they are very uncomfortable. There has been pain present for the last week, and i cant tell what it is. I have never felt cramps or contractions before, so with every incident of pain, i get very paranoid! I am just scared that i will go into labor, but ignore the pain and then it will be too late, considering our hospital is an hour away. I am just praying that God gives me wisdom when it comes to this, but i know that when it is time, i will definitely know it IS time! praying that the time will be soon! :)

I am excited to see how My reacts to the baby. He is so excited to meet his baby brother, and yes, there is a name now..we are just keeping it a secret until he is actually born. We like keeping everyone in suspense! hehe..shame on us, i know!

We do, actually have a PTL! Myles and i were worried that when he goes on his bonding leave, EDD would not pay very much to cover our expenses, in which the normal disability check is only 55% of his salary. Despite how horrible his job is, not just being there, but also their lack of compassion to their employees, we found out that he gets up to 12 weeks off, as opposed to 6 from the state..AND he will get a larger percentage of than the state is giving. We will still have to tighten our belts, which we have been since even before the baby is born, but it is also a blessing because it will give us time to be together as a family AND look for better jobs!! :D

so pray for us..i have a feeling that the next week is going to be crucial! [hopefully :)]

and hopefully, the next blog will be about an official addition to our family!